Bottled Dreams

If I was told that I was too young to do something, like staying out later than my too early cerfu or something else like that, then I wouldn’t have as much of a problem with being told that. But I have been told that I’m too young pretty much all my life.

I think the most that I have been told that I’m too young for is getting married. I didn’t care the first few times people felt the need to tell me that after telling them I was getting married and that I’m only 18, but after hearing it a bajillion times it gets aggravating. Apparently people expect everyone to wait until they are 30 or something to get married. All of my close family has gotten married young and there is nothing wrong with their marriages. I guess because I’m too young I don’t know what I feel or what I’m doing. Just throwing my life away. Well, that’s not how I feel about it and that’s why I don’t listen to the people that say that to me.

I think the first time I remember hearing that I was too young for something was when I started developing. I was in elementry school when I got my first bra. I think I remember my dad saying to my mom “Isn’t she too young for that?!” Then when we went to go get it someone at the store said I was too young. Either way, I needed it. lol

Then a few years ago it was my back. I started having back problems and everyone (even my doctor) has told me that I’m too young to be having back problems like I do. Well I’m sorry, it is not my choice to be in pain like this. Trust me, if I had a choice I would never have back problems.

I really can’t think of any other major things that I have been told that I’m too young for, but I know there are more, other pains and such. :/

Well, it’s been a while sense I have blogged and I don’t really have any excuse except that I just haven’t really felt like it. :/ I could say that I haven’t had the time, but I have.

Right now I’m on the 18-wheeler with my Dad and Cory. We are currently somewhere in Texas heading to Mississippi to unload some machine parts we have on the trailer right now. For those of you who don’t know, the freakin roads here are extremely bumpy. And could drive a person insane if they are doing anything other than driving or just riding. Sense I don’t have a real seat in here I don’t usually just sit and ride. My seat is the bed in the back. Not that I’m really complaining though, it gives me plenty of room for the two laptops and my notebooks and stuff so that I can work while I’m out here.

Yes, two computers. Mine and my dads. Daddy’s has an air card in it so I can get internet anywhere and mine has my programs that I need to work on the websites. It gets a little confusing at times..but I figure it out eventually. All I have to do is edit the files on my computer, put them on a flash drive, disconnect the flash drive from my computer and plug it into Daddy’s, upload the file with the ftp program I had to install on here, then check it online to make sure it looks like it’s supposed to, then do it all over again for something else. Sounds like fun don’t it? Oh yes, tons.

Either way, I’m really glad I have internet at all.

I have the house to myself. It’s weird, this doesn’t happen often. My parents and brother are off ridding and Cory is at his dads getting his trailer. So right now I’m on two computers. lol. Because one is never enough for me. I am quite often on more than one at a time.

The reason I’m on two right now though is because I’m trying to fix Cory’s computer. Sense it takes so long to do anything I’m also doing my stuff on my own computer. I think all he needs is a good anti-virus thingy on there. Cory’s mom’s husband told me about a good one today when we went over there, so I’m gonna try it on his. If it fixes his then I’m going to put it on mine too. Because as bad as his computer is right now if it can fix his then I know it will be better than what I have on mine.

Cory and I went camping last weekend. It was fun until it started raining at 6am. It would rain for a while, then stop, then rain again. And sense he was determined to fish we were fishing in the rain for a while. It was fun and I didn’t get sick because of it so it’s all good.

I have been wanting to blog all week, but we have been so busy that I haven’t had time to. Like Cory told me earlyer, we have gotten used to being away from each other during the week. So when he is home during the week I don’t get everything done that I want to and we tend to get snappy at each other. (I totally blame him though. lol) No, I’m kidding, I know I don’t help any…me and my screwy emotions I’ve been having lately. I mean, a friend flicked my ear last night just playing around and I started crying. I have no idea why either. I’m not one of those girls that crys all the time or at all even. If he had hurt me I would have turned around and punched him or something. But the littlest thing lately has been making me cry. I hate it.

Ok, Cory’s computer is driving me insane. It was working a bit at first, but now it’s completely acting stupid. Grr. I don’t want to have to take it to our computer guy because we don’t have the extra money for that right now. So I’m hoping this anti-virus thing will work for it so we don’t have to spend the money on it.